Virtual friends

To me, my virtual friends sometimes are better then my real friends. However, my friendship with them can never be as my friendship with my real friends. 

I can proudly say that I met some of my virtual friends in person and for some of them I got really shocked. I didn't think they looked like they did, because you never really know who is behind that computer screen. 

Some people may say that it's unsafe to meet other people by web, but I never-ever met someone I would, for example, date and stuff like that because I feel like online dating isn't so safe. And this thing I just said was so unneeded but oh well. 

Personally I think you can make really nice virtual friends and I give you a heads up for that. Just don't became friends if your, idk, 15 and you want to become friends with a 50 year-old guy. Because let's face it, we all know how that will end up...

Oh and if anyone wants to be friends with me, don't be afraid to chat with me. :)

Back when I lost my best friend.

I had one best friend that I could tell everything to, until she moved to a new school and to a new location due to her parents divorce. She was still in the same town, which was good. We could see each other. We promised ourselves that we would be friends, and hang out every weekend.

It was like that the first 2 weeks, and then we just saw each other again on birthdays. Now we don't even see each other anymore, because everyone in school forgot about her, I guess. I didn't. I still remember her, I remember everything about her. I wish we were still friends, but we aren't. We may end up in the same high school (it starts way way way later in my country than in normal ones) because I heard she is planning on going in the one I want. I hope it goes like that because, even tho I hate to admin it, I miss her. I haven't seen her in a year and a half. I saw her brother yesterday tho, he told me she was doing alright. I'm curious if she even remembers me, if she remembers those 6 years we were there for each other. 

Sadly now, she turned into a whole different person I never even knew. Sometimes I wonder what would she end up being if she stayed in the same school. Would we continue being friends or would we stop? Would we end up in a big fight or plan to go to the same school together? Those are questions that I will never know the answer for...

However, I moved on. I found new friend, but none of them are really my best friends because they ditch me sometimes, and by the time I wanted to make friends, they already had them :/ 

But I won't end this by being sad, because I don't want you to feel that way about me. I'm happy that I don't have a best friend, I'm happy just the way things are right now, but I do always wonder how would it be the other side around. 

"It is sad when you realize you are not as important to someone as they are to you!"

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Back from London + School Picture Day!

Hello!
I recently got back from London and it was by far the best trip ever! I feel in love with London even tho everyone who was with me thought that it was nothing special.
I guess I've just always been interested in England in general, I always wanted to study there and I still have a tape from when I was four telling my mom I wanted to go there. And there I was, 10 years later. My London trip was amazing. I know I said that like 5 times now, but it really was.
The thing I liked the most was probably the Buckingham Palace or the Trafalgar Square, I don't even know yet. It was just a dream come true, and it was like a miracle to me. I mean, it's everything I ever wanted coming true. I'll probably write a whole post about 'What to see in London?' when my feelings are settled.
Oh and I have picture day today, which is not the best thing since I'm sick. :/

LONDON HERE I COME!

Tomorrow, I am finally going to London. It's kinda sad that I couldn't of go there any earlier, like on 3.4.2013. because that was the day I had my flight, had a ticket to a 1D concert, but I guess not all things in life go as easy as planned or visas don't arrive as fast as they should. So now, I  have a flight on 11.4.2013. which is tomorrow and I'm so blessed that I can finally go to London and see it. I'm so happy and I won't be posting any time soon. Sorry.

Big day tomorrow!

So tomorrow I'm going on a meeting for the UK visa. If I get it, I will be traveling to London at the beginning of next month. 

A letter to my mother.

Dear mom,
I don't think I'm still old enough to tell you everything I think and feel towards you. Maybe I'll never be able to tell you everything I want to when I imagine your face. I'll never be able to learn all the world with which I could describe you because those words aren't made up yet.
But I'll try. I'm giving you this letter with a lot of thanks and love. It's always implies that kids love their mothers naturally, but how many of them and how often do they tell that to their mothers? Mothers concern and love is natural but mothers show it everyday, they repeat it, like they are on some kind of life lasting test. That's why I'm writing to you from all my heart how much I love you. If I could, I'd collect all the kisses from this world and give them to you. With all the smiles in the world I'd cover your face, so that you are always happy because you are that one person that gives me energy and happiness. I don't like it when I see you sad or concerned. Not even for my temperature, nor for the forgotten sandwich or for my bad grade. If I could have one wish it would say "i wish my mom was always happy, never worried and that she always happy and that she has a smile on her face". I can feel it when something is bothering you, even if you don't show it. You are always there for me to cheer me up, to advise me, but when I look at you I know what you're feeling. Thank you for all the strength you have in me. Even when it's hard, even when it's sad, you always go throw it all like a real hero. You know how much I enjoy watching tv with you, going to grandmas, going shopping. Thank you for all those sleepless nights because of me, thank you for all those bedtime stories in those colorful pjs, for all your surprises you made for me. I'll never forget how happy you make me for every birthday. That time when you organized that my favorite athlete comes to my birthday party, or when you bought me my very own first dog, or when you took me to New York. Thank you for all the support that you show me to my every attempt in sports or music. Thank you for understanding all my stupid ideas (which you tolerate). I love you mom! You are my magician, my good fairy. And I'll never understand from where do you get all that strength to take all those years which were hard. That's why I admire you and every time I fall, I remember how you always got up and never let anything get you down, to stop you.
And at the end, I'm sorry for all the things I caused, for all those tears that other night, for all those words I told you without even thinking and for my every bad decision. Despite that, I still love you the same way and you mean a lot to me. Don't ever forget that! 
With love,
your daughter.

What are real problems and what not?

I feel like we complain too much. We make big problems of our own in our minds, not in reality. These are not big problems: not getting your hair done, not getting a new car or not eating 15 times a day. I mean, it may be a problem for some people, but I'm just annoyed when people constantly repeat it. They are going on and on and on about how they have some big problems, but do they? No. A big problem is when you are sick, when you don't have a place to live, a place to eat, a place to sleep. I think we make big deal about something that shouldn't even be a deal at all. Out there you can see so many people not having basic things that everyone should. Some people don't have electricity, not to even mention about having a computer. It  makes me puke when I hear people telling me that they won't speak to their parents because they can't find money to finance their collage on a different continent. Um hello... some people don't even have parents.

What my point by writing this is, well, just to show to people that there are worse things than those happening to you. So live everyday of your life with a huge smile on your face because of what you have, because of the life you have. And be grateful. Give back to those who helped you when no one did, to those that raised you.